I have been thinking, I do that sometimes, yes I know hard to believe right? We often speak about the easy things in life we are thankful for, family, friends, home, food, life but seldom are we ever thankful for anything bad. Bare with me you may find this crazy or insane but I think we should be thankful for the bad stuff as well in life! I am thankful for those who ridiculed me growing up as a child the people in school right on down to my very own flesh and blood grandfather. All because I was fat, I was different I didn't fit their molds of what they thought was normal. Mind you at the time I wasn't thankful for any of this, it is with age that I have looked back and understood and saw what I got from this! What did you get you might ask? I got stronger, sure I went home every day and cried and cried, but I had parents that loved me and consoled me and stood by me and loved me no matter the size of my jeans! Besides getting stronger what else did I get I got understanding for others I developed a great sense of understanding for other people who may not be someones idea of perfect, I also gained compassion for others as well. I also was taught tolerance for others differences during this time of my life. I also got a great group of real friends that have stuck by me through thick and thin they aren't many they are few but they are true and they have always accepted me no matter what. I want to ad, I have also learned forgiveness from these experiences as well. I am thankful that I was taught forgiveness because I have needed forgiveness as well in my life, haven't we all?
I am thankful for the 11 years I was married to my ex husband it was 11 years of ups and downs mostly downs. It was riddled with verbal abuse, emotional abuse and physical abuse. The bright side to this first and foremost is I have three beautiful children that I love so much more than I could have ever imagined loving another human being. But what good can come out of abuse? Well some good can come out of just about anything if you try to see it. In those years I didn't see it then but he made me stronger too. I learned to stand up for myself, I learned that I am worth so much more than I ever gave myself credit for. I learned self confidence, oh how can that be some might say you didn't have much self confidence if you were taking that abuse, no not at first I had no self confidence no self esteem I felt just about as bad as anyone could feel about their self! But I found my feet, my confidence and my self worth, I held my head high and walked away with my three children. I faced my life as a single mom finishing her associates degree raising three kids I found in me the courage to face whatever may come my way. So I am thankful for that time of my life.
I am thankful for the years I strayed away from God, crazy that might sound to some, insane, nuts whatever you wanna call it. It was those years that I learned that the times I thought I was alone, that no one cared the years I lost my faith and my walk with God. The years I ventured into waters I had no business in. The years my marriage to my husband was strained. It was those years that I found my faith, I learned I was never truly alone even when I ventured where I didn't need to be when I knew the truth and what was real. I am thankful that today I can sit here and type this and know that God is always with me even in my darkest moments. That even though I turned away from him at one point he never turned his back on me. He allowed me to venture out and away and let me learn these lessons I needed to learn so that I could come back to where I needed to be. I believe that this taught me even more compassion, tolerance, love and faith. And for that I am thankful! Though these experiences seem bad, hard, difficult and just plane horrible to others and some may not understand why I would be thankful for them I have to say these things are what made me who I am. I may not be anyone's idea of normal, perfect, or any other term of the like you would want to throw out there but I am exactly who and what I need to be I may stumble, I may fall but I know who will be there to pull me back up every single time I need him to, and for that...I am thankful.
I am thankful for the 11 years I was married to my ex husband it was 11 years of ups and downs mostly downs. It was riddled with verbal abuse, emotional abuse and physical abuse. The bright side to this first and foremost is I have three beautiful children that I love so much more than I could have ever imagined loving another human being. But what good can come out of abuse? Well some good can come out of just about anything if you try to see it. In those years I didn't see it then but he made me stronger too. I learned to stand up for myself, I learned that I am worth so much more than I ever gave myself credit for. I learned self confidence, oh how can that be some might say you didn't have much self confidence if you were taking that abuse, no not at first I had no self confidence no self esteem I felt just about as bad as anyone could feel about their self! But I found my feet, my confidence and my self worth, I held my head high and walked away with my three children. I faced my life as a single mom finishing her associates degree raising three kids I found in me the courage to face whatever may come my way. So I am thankful for that time of my life.
I am thankful for the years I strayed away from God, crazy that might sound to some, insane, nuts whatever you wanna call it. It was those years that I learned that the times I thought I was alone, that no one cared the years I lost my faith and my walk with God. The years I ventured into waters I had no business in. The years my marriage to my husband was strained. It was those years that I found my faith, I learned I was never truly alone even when I ventured where I didn't need to be when I knew the truth and what was real. I am thankful that today I can sit here and type this and know that God is always with me even in my darkest moments. That even though I turned away from him at one point he never turned his back on me. He allowed me to venture out and away and let me learn these lessons I needed to learn so that I could come back to where I needed to be. I believe that this taught me even more compassion, tolerance, love and faith. And for that I am thankful! Though these experiences seem bad, hard, difficult and just plane horrible to others and some may not understand why I would be thankful for them I have to say these things are what made me who I am. I may not be anyone's idea of normal, perfect, or any other term of the like you would want to throw out there but I am exactly who and what I need to be I may stumble, I may fall but I know who will be there to pull me back up every single time I need him to, and for that...I am thankful.
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